Academics 2
Now, coming to me: I’ve never been too proud of my scholastic performance since as long as I remember, maybe last when I felt good was in class IX! PMTs were as bad as possible. They were some sort of once in a lifetime catastrophe.
Then first year in college was marginally better, and by that I mean securing 64 percent, never mind the rank in class. 2nd year is some kind of a comic story. Excluding pharmac result which is still undeclared, I’m getting 55% in the last semester exams, which is so bad and so below average that I cannot believe how I’ve come to such a pass. This result is unsettling. Finals are in January.
I have never made plans for future the way some of my classmates make. But it’s disturbing to see where I’m headed educationally. With this kind of preparation, I’m definitely not going anywhere. I think my energies are scattered into so many things that I’ve lost focus. I want to see myself studying for many hours a day because I really like books such as Guyton and Robbins. But, I’m passionate about dancing (have joined dance classes), movies, novels, hills, philosophy, photography and this leaves little time and concentration to be spared for rectifying a topsy-turvy academic situation.
juturna said,
September 12, 2009 at 12:32 pm
i’m glad that i’m not the only soul facing a ‘mid-undergraduate’ crisis… echo your thoughts completely… college life seems to consist of everything but acads… its strange considering that IS your primary motive for being there… extra currics seem so much more appealing – even though you know most of them are for your own self rather than collective appreciation…
well all i can say is now that the realisation is concrete – get out there and give it your best shot… all the best