F.O.E.S.(and friends)
I am not trying to stay afloat. I am not trying to plaster a fake smile across my face. I am afloat and i am smiling. I was i little irked this morning, just that.
June 19, 2oo8 will go down in my college memoirs as a day of reckoning. A sorting out ceremony was arranged by Mr Fate, where i could c-l-e-a-r-l-y sort out 1. friends and foes; 2. Fake friends and real friends; and, 3. Good real friends and bad real friends.
It happened so that i am being accused of having done something(heinous, actually) which i know i never did. There’s this particular female friend of mine who thinks i did some sort of backbiting. I am accused of defaming her. She and and a couple of her good male friends have come up with mind-numbing stories, from where i know not. I refute the charges. Though, as if i care.
I give a sincere and goddamn fuck to people who’re switching sides. I extend my unholy fuck to those gossip-mongers who need a potboiler each hour to chew upon. And, my truest fuck to people who think i’m wrong.
I have a circle of friends which trusts me, loves me, care for me and i care for them. God save the people outside that circle. I have succeeded in anything and everything in life till now, with the same attitude which i follow today. If a few people think otherwise – fuck you.
I have just one short-coming, and all of my friends i’ve ever been in touch with will attest – i cannot remain cross with people for too long. May be the fog will clear some day: for my accusers(f.o.e.s. for now). It already cleared for me today.
I refrain from utilising my blog as a tool to rectify a topsy-turvy situation. My blog is not a veil to fend away unsolicited character-assassinations(phewwww). I am not a political party, and this is not a party MOUTHPIECE. This is absolutely may arena!
manish said,
June 19, 2008 at 3:30 pm
thank u ankur!! today i learnt types of fucks-sincere,goddamn,unholy and truest..i’ll try hard understanding each one of it.
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u knw whts ur problem u always think from ur own point of view.u’ll never even try to think what the other person wants to say..even now i knw,u’ll be thinking how to answer to my above post(abt the types of fucks)
“”"I refrain from utilising my blog as a tool to rectify a topsy-turvy situation. My blog is not a veil to fend away unsolicited character-assassinations(phewwww). I am not a political party, and this is not a party MOUTHPIECE. This is absolutely may arena”"”"
i never intended to say all that u’ve written.”"‘
now tell me,did i say u are a political party?? did i say u r utilising my blog as a tool to rectify a topsy-turvy situation??? the fact is u didnt get my point…and ur crap in inverted commas creates an impression in my mind as if my previous post offended u badly and u r bringing out ur frustration in words in ur MOUTHPIECE..
my serious suggestion to u as ur friend is-either stop thinking too much or start taking things lightly…..
ankuranky said,
June 20, 2008 at 2:35 pm
Manish
there’s mis-communication and or rather, mis-interpretation going on here.
“”now tell me,did i say u are a political party?? did i say u r utilising my blog as a tool to rectify a topsy-turvy situation??? the fact is u didnt get my point…and ur crap in inverted commas creates an impression in my mind as if my previous post offended u badly and u r bringing out ur frustration in words in ur MOUTHPIECE..”"
wow! why on earth would my lines be aimed at you!?
THESE LINES WERE AIMED AT PEOPLE WHO TRIED TO MALIGN MY CHARACTER, PLITICISED ME AND CREATED A BOILING SITUATION AND THAT IS NOT YOU! I’M TALKING ABT PEOPLE AT MY COLLEGE! now this is mis-interpretation at its height…
I get a horrifying thought just now….. manish, the fucks were also not aimed at you or ANY of my true friends. THE WEIRDEST THING EVER! They wee for some ppl here….how cud u miss the point.
I definitely didnt have you or anyone else from my past life in mind while writing this post. Why would i be so frustrated at you ridiculing my blog habits? I AM taking it lightly….and truly, i’m not that free these days to think about such trivial things. Time HAS changed.
The lines in ur “”inverted”" commas were written for a completely different audience, with a completely different intention. I’m sorry if i couldnt get the point across. Man, be assured that although we quarrel abt many things, you can hardly manage to irk me to such an extent.
Aur bata? Jaundice ka kya haal chaal?
manish said,
June 20, 2008 at 6:09 pm
wadiya yaar jaundice ho raha hai theek..did u read the thing i sed at last?..”my serious suggestion to u as ur friend is-either stop thinking too much or start taking things lightly…..” if ur companions over there play such politics then dont call them ur friends..they are nothing but ur batch mates..dnt think much about them..dnt expect anything frm them..and if at all they do wrong to u,take it lightly.
u knw ur own words are still echoing in my ears,”friends are never made by trying”"the golden rules 2 remain calm are:
1. dont expect anything frm anyone
2. dont give a thought 2 people whom u dont like..they aren’t worhty enough of anything in ur life..not even ur thoughts
even i’ve passed through a similar phase.. u knw well
ankuranky said,
June 21, 2008 at 2:17 pm
You know after this incident out here i’m more confident and far more natural. Thankyou for reminding me those lines, i needed them now. It’s difficult to follow these two rules you’ve mentioned…they’re almost saintly. And thats why they’re so true.
Nikki said,
July 21, 2008 at 4:34 pm
how, so very well, does d post co-relate wid me, my experiences…except for d fact- that i’ve been accused over n over by the same n different ppl…… i’m learning, not to give a fuck!!
thanks for d post (&comments), i have been reminded of so much, only to make me stronger n better! truly..
ankuranky said,
July 21, 2008 at 4:42 pm
Once you wrote to kalyani, which was something like this – “everyone is lonely”
I think this is true.
Nikki said,
July 21, 2008 at 4:44 pm
it is VERY true.. i’ve realised this ALL THE MORE, in past 3days…
ankuranky said,
July 21, 2008 at 4:51 pm
Well….do whatever…. even if u get a gang of friends, or a gf/bf, or a great roomie…..at the end of the day………or at some point you’re bound to feel empty and alone.
I guess it’s but human. It’s the stupid hypothalamus and amygdala from where these freaky things like loneliness and completeness arise. Emotions!
ankuranky said,
July 21, 2008 at 5:02 pm
Hey tellme on average how many couples are there in each batch of your college? How many couples are there in ur batch?
Nikki said,
July 21, 2008 at 5:03 pm
oye, wats ur no.? i have 3 of them in my contacts!
on an average- 2to 3!!
n abt my batch…dont really know
WHY?
ankuranky said,
July 22, 2008 at 9:59 am
Vaise he……
My numbr’s 9923020649 here in maharashtra. I’ll get a new sim when i come to ambala…..i’ll giv u dat number
Nikki said,
July 22, 2008 at 1:51 pm
ok ok, i had dis no.!